︎ HAISHISHENLOU (”MIRAGE”)
I have always dreamed of running away from the city: not just for a holiday retreat, but to be rid of it, for good. Yet I know nothing about a life not amid high-rise buildings.
I then start to break down the city in my head, into blocks and pieces, in the hope that by rearranging these deconstructed elements, I could build up a place I feel more belonged.
But I was still in touch with the city: either I wrestle with it or dissect it, we remain in bond. I then realized that I've always needed the city's presence to be able to rebel against it.
I'm in an ultimate paradox that sees no end or relief.
I then start to break down the city in my head, into blocks and pieces, in the hope that by rearranging these deconstructed elements, I could build up a place I feel more belonged.
But I was still in touch with the city: either I wrestle with it or dissect it, we remain in bond. I then realized that I've always needed the city's presence to be able to rebel against it.
I'm in an ultimate paradox that sees no end or relief.
我一直梦想着能够逃离城市：不是为了短暂的度假，而是要彻底摆脱掉它。但我却对不被高楼大厦笼罩的生活一无所知。
我于是开始在自己的脑海中将城市解体，把它分裂成碎片和零部件。我期望着通过重新组装这些被自己拆散的元素，能搭建起一个我心之所向的地方。
但在此过程中我仍然不可避免地被城市包围：无论我与它博弈还是将它剖解，我仍与它有着亲密的联系。我方才醒悟，我需要城市的存在才能将其反抗。
我进退两难。这样的矛盾似乎没有结束，也无法缓解。
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我于是开始在自己的脑海中将城市解体，把它分裂成碎片和零部件。我期望着通过重新组装这些被自己拆散的元素，能搭建起一个我心之所向的地方。
但在此过程中我仍然不可避免地被城市包围：无论我与它博弈还是将它剖解，我仍与它有着亲密的联系。我方才醒悟，我需要城市的存在才能将其反抗。
我进退两难。这样的矛盾似乎没有结束，也无法缓解。
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